i wont make that mistake again.

anyway,
amaya and porno party is just what i needed. hahaha.

i dont even know why im awake. This has been eating me for days. Testifying against my own mother to prove she is unfit. I dont know how im supposed to look at her ever. Not that she can look at me now. I guess its the right thing to do since she just ruined everything. My dad and ana are rethinking the marriage thing because my mom wont leave them alone. I cant finish filing for fafsa because of her. I dont understand how someone i never see or talk to can break my heart over and over and over. How can i NOT prove her unfit. I have someone who has only known me for a few years calling me helping me telling me she loves me. Why cant i get that from her..thats all i EVER wanted. After all the hurt she put me through why do i feel so terrible about doing this to her?

i just want a hug.